I know. You thought that I was dead.

Soooo, I haven't been on here in FOR-E-VER. The wireless at my house hasn't been working for the last 2 months so, I have to go somewhere else to get online and it's just a pain in the butt. It's working now though so I will be back on. I had to go back and get caught up on all your news.

Things are crazy here. I went to St. Louis a couple of weeks ago to lead worship for a conference. I got to stay in the same house as the speaker for the conference, Billy Humphrey. This guy is the director of the only other 24/7 IHOP and it's in Atlanta. So, I led worship, he spoke and he was awesome. I was taking him to the airport and he turns to me and says, "So, will it take a dream or an angel at the end of your bed to get you to come to Atlanta?". I was like, "What?" He told me that he wanted me to come and be one of his main worship leaders, that he would give me six, two hour worship sets a week to lead, a full team and have me do all of the worship for their weekend services. I was so shocked. I didn't even know what to say. I had only met this guy three days earlier and he was asking me to leave Kansas City and come to Atlanta.

I had a lot to think about after that weekend, obviously. I have been praying and seeking the Lord about it and I really think that it's not the right timing. The Lord has had me in this place for the last 8 months of being hidden. He has been tearing out everything fleshly and prideful and every ungodly desire to be seen by man that I discovered was rooted deep in me. It's made me really look at my motives for doing what I do as a worship leader. In this time the Lord has taken away every opportunity for me to lead worship, sing and play except for once a week with an intern class. It's been really hard, but really good. There are days that I am so full of envy and jealousy because others are being seen and favored and exalted and I'm not, and there are days that I can't quit thanking God for His goodness in putting me through this because every once in awhile He will let me see the fruit of it. Like for the conference, I have never had the Word flow out of me so easily when leading worship as it did then. I know that this time is going to be so vital to my ministry in the long run. To have this reality embedded in me as a worship leader, I will be able to go leaps and bounds compared to where I would have been without it. I think that the offer to go to ATL was more the Lord showing that I still have His favor and anointing to lead and it was Him saying, "I still see you, I'm still establishing you and I'm still working a good thing in you." he reminded me of a dream that I had before I went to KC. I dreamed that I was getting ready to lead worship and the room was full of people. I got up on stage and started to get ready to play and this huge, thick, red curtain kept falling in front of me and covering up me and the piano up. I kept trying to sing and play, but no one could see or hear me because of the curtain. I was so frustrated. I was completely blocked and hidden from view. I remember that Lea Nielsen actually ended up getting up on stage and leading worship. After reminding me of this dream the Lord said, "This is what your time in KC has been."

Yeah. Well, I guess that's it. High five to you if you actually read all of this, I know that it was long. I know that Nolan and Jaralei probably will, but I don't know about Andy. He's a little too A.D.D. for a long post like this.

Alrighty. I love you guys and miss you with all of my heart. Lets hang out tomorrow night ok? My house. I'll fire up the grill and bring the tiki torches, Nolan and Hannah you bring the burgers, Andy you bring the beer, Daniel you got a good hold on the tequila as always and Jaralei you bring the chocolate.

It's a date.