I came so close to giving my two weeks notice today, you have no idea.
I still have to pray about it some more, but I kinda feel like I'm not suppose to - I need to keep on holding out until August. It sucks around here sometimes, sucks living with a crazy person, in a constant state of any moment could put knots in my stomach. I stood and thought today 'I can't believe this is my life, that I'm living this way.' My mom's concerned because it's basically like an abusive situation (not physically) and she doesn't want it to have long-term effects on me. She counseled me to leave today, and I usually take her advice because she's usually right. But...I felt like I was suppose to come; last October when I almost left I felt like I was suppose to stay; and now I have to keep believing God will keep me safely and complete the work He has started here, until I feel released to go. Which I think, I hope with all my heart, is August. Come, August. I have to tell myself "it won't always be this way".

Just wanted to ... I don't know, tell you guys.

Another day another ulcer, right?! :-)

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what are you doing with my mother??

Blades of Glory

If you haven't seen this yet don't. I was talking with Andy tonight and we think we should all watch it when we get here...

cute kid

Come, May 19

SHOOTER

Last night Hannah and I went to see the movie Shooter, but it was only playing in a theater that was about 30 minutes down the road. I decided to that the highway since we were cutting it close to getting there. Of course I was travelling a few miles over the limit but that's nothing new. There is though this patch of highway that the bridge is being worked on so the limit jumps down to 45. As I was coming up to the area I had one guy pass me so I didn't worry about my speed. As we were going through the construction I knew it was coming up to a one lane road soon so I began passing one guy who pretty slow only to quickly approached the guy who past me prior. I was curious why he now was going so slow around the corner. My gut feeling said COP but my flesh said keep going... as I did I meet the cop around the corner going at least 25 over! Quickly speed down looked behind me to see another car was just as shocked as I was. We slowly got our speed down and I started to merge to slow lane as we were ready to take the one lane road... I kept my eye on the cop but I noticed that after 4 cars past him he came out and started to follow. As I was the leader my stomach knotted very quickly. Speeding in a construction zone is double. I had about a mile to go of one lane road so I knew the cop couldn't speed up to get me till I had gotten out of the construction. In y head I was trying to think if I had enough distance to get off on the next exit before he could reach me... well I didn't. That mile was horrible. I knew for sure he was coming for me. As we began to open to two lanes all the cars started to part and the cop pulled over the guy he was behind! What a relief. I hate that feeling. At least for the next few weeks I am scared enough I won't speed ;)

Hey, shooter was really good too ;)